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friends only :) [Jun. 14th, 2010|05:29 am]
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Weird ass dreams. [Jul. 10th, 2009|07:53 pm]
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Yet another nightmare. This one was within a set of interesting dreams. I went to a concert with my friends not realising it was a private Eminem concert with an audience of about 100. I was right at the back but I moved closer to Jade and she hugged me, happy that I wanted to be near her. Aw, can't believe I had Jade in my dream =). Sadly my dream fast forwarded past the concert and other shit happened.

I was in a theme park with my family. There was a random door saying "Air Upstairs" and I went up it because there was a Boots in it, and I wanted some wax strips. It was really dark but I went up the stairs and when I got to the top, I realised I had to crawl underneath a really small space on the floor to get into the shop. When I did that I realised two girls were behind me and was scared shitless, until they giggled. Went in and somehow ended up being with friends and it was this really weird, dark underground Boots and the shop assistant was Emma Watson!? So I bought a camera and we all took pictures with her... but neither she nor my friend could take pictures well enough, which pissed me off... when Emma came close to me to get the picture done I realised she was fat! She was like a fat Lenny from The Butterfly Effect. Sorely disappointed with that one. Then we went on the theme park rides, it was weird, I was part of the Jackson 5 and... lots of shit happened which I can't remember.

Oh, and since there's a sexual part to most of my dreams, here's the sexual part: I ended up being Janine Butcher from Eastenders and I was trying to get Terry back from his wife. (HOW THE FUCK do my dreams take me back to 90's television episodes??) Anyway, Terry ended up being my mum. WTTTTTF. Terry's wife Irene left the house and I took that as an opportunity to start my flirting. She was cooking in the kitchen and I went up behind her (as Janine, I'm pretty sure) and as she was stirring the pot I was kind of rubbing my boob on her back in a close huggy kind of way. Lmao. And then I put my hand up her shirt and rubbed and lightly scratched her back and.. she was loving it. I could feel her shiver with delight. Hahaha. Then it was like we were in a bed because our bodies were intertwined, with my leg wrapping around hers. I think we started dry humping. Whatever we were doing, it was hot. (Btw, I only JUST realised it was my mum so that's pretty sucky.. why couldn't it have been Lindsay Lohan??)

To the nightmare: my mother's adopted sister Amanda was in the dream... and her daughter was about 4 years old, but at some points she was like a baby. Amanda was evil and wanted her daughter to do embroidery on sanitary towels. W.t.f. Her daughter was on her period (???) which I had to clean like it was a diaper. Um.. kay. So her daughter was like an anorexic when it came to embroidering, she just refused to do it. This pissed Amanda off, lmao. And I had my suspicions that Amanda was abusing her because her behaviour was reaaaally fucked up and telling of it (this itself was really scary). The scariest point of the dream was when I wrapped the daughter up in some tissues and put her down the toilet. She was the size of a golf ball, and she was in the form of a sanitary towel. Srsly, don't ask me. I joked that I would flush her and I put my hand on the chain but it was a sensitive one and it was flushing her away! I panicking and pulled her out and feared she was dead because of the water drowning her. I thought she was dead but sometime later she was alive and causing trouble again........ But eventually she wouldn't come out of her room and all Amanda was saying was "you better come out to do this embroidery!!!" but I thought she was dead then. Anyway soo much happened in that dream, it was fucking WEIRD.

I had other dreams but my nephews are here, so ciao-ciao!
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Detox - Over [Jul. 10th, 2009|05:32 am]
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Detox is over. On the final day I ate an apple and rice with cauliflower. I'll post about the entire detox another time.

I've had three nightmares this week. It's worrying me.

Love my bestie<3.
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meme [Jul. 8th, 2009|05:14 pm]
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15 Years Ago, I:
1. was almost 4 years old (:
2. used to break my parents cigarettes because it was fun
3. was the most loved girl in the world, or so I felt it (:
4. started infants school and used to cry when my parents left me
5. had nooo freakin troubles whatsoever.

10 Years Ago, I:
1. moved primary schools
2. moved town
3. had a fun, sweet childhood
4. had fun with the best dad in the world
5. was a tomboy, thanks to my four brothers

5 Years Ago, I:
1. was influenced by an ex to love rock and metal, before i liked pop, hip hop and rap haha.
2. chased guys with my group of overly girly, overly dramatic girl friends
3. had some awessssssome fun in high school, i loved high school (:
4. started doubting my sexuality, ooo
5. made the best memories

3 Years Ago, I:
1. was in a pretty bad place emotionally
2. grew apart from most friends and matured
3. had my whole life changed by three beautiful, close friends
4. got my first nephew, which changed home life in a good way
5. wasn't as honest as i am today. today i am deeply honest about everything.

Last year, I:
1. became very, very happy and positive
2. learned a lot about myself
3. didn't work hard, but got amazing grades
4. grew so much that i can say 2008 is very separate from my life before it. i loved 2008.
5. went to a jack johnson concert, yay!

Yesterday, I:
1. watched MJ's memorial and cried like a baby :(
2. only ate soup and a potato, sort of fucking up my system
3. was absolutely exhausted physically
4. no longer saw my father in the same way i always saw him..
5. wrote a beautiful song about summer and memories and started singing and playing it on piano

Today, I:
1. woke up super late and wasted the day
2. texted Joe about when we're gonna meet, 2moro
3. ate a granny smith apple
4. read a newspaper and cried like a baby yet again over MJ. gonna keep this newspaper forever.
5. wrote this!

Tomorrow, I:
1. will go to the salon with Lauren
2. will go out with joey
3. will be done with my detox, i think, unless i decide to go for 10 days
4. exercise
5. buy some new scales

3 Bad Habits I Have:
1. too picky. fucking hate it.
2. i like to do nothing when i should be doing something
3. making plans and then cancelling/postponing them
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Living in your letters / Detox - Day Six [Jul. 8th, 2009|12:47 am]
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I love these lyrics so much.

Pouring over photographs.
I'm living in your letters.
Breathe deeply from this envelope
it smells like you and I can't be
without that scent. It's filling me
with all you mean to me.
to me...


Uh, today I didn't eat much... just some soup and a baked potato with some haricot beans.
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Grr. [Jul. 7th, 2009|11:13 pm]
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I never wrote about this, but recently I was asked out by a friend from college. I rejected him, not because we wouldn't be awesome together but because I really don't want a relationship. Anyway, the point is that he's being an emo bitch about it and it's making me really sick and pissed off. I can't stand male friendships any more. I seriously can't. I don't know why I bother with "friendship" because it's never really that, is it?
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Detox - Day Five [Jul. 7th, 2009|08:22 am]
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Quaker Oats, 3 apples, haricot beans and one small slice of brown bread, some rice. Only one bottle of water :/. Not really a good day. I didn't like how I did it, I didn't spread it throughout the day like usual. I went about 9 hours before eating and I never even felt hungry. What is up with that?
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Detox - Day Four [Jul. 6th, 2009|12:47 am]
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Today I thought I'd change it up a bit. I initially wanted to go on a 7 day liquid detox but I decided against it, instead I dedicate one day towards it. Just juice and soup. This detox is pretty easy, I have something as soon as I feel hungry (I aim for every 3 hours) and I'm drinking heaps of water.

Here's what I ate today in pics )
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Detox - Day Three [Jul. 4th, 2009|10:49 pm]
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I was busy today so I didn't think to eat, but I wasn't hungry. Mango, beans, pineapple chunks, rice and beans. Couldn't handle much of the rice and beans though, it was filling. I don't know why I have such a small appetite. I think I'll have some sweetcorn or oats later :]. Edit: I did have oats and a banana :].
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Detox - Day Two / Nightmare [Jul. 4th, 2009|06:21 am]
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Yesterday was a great day, I fell asleep before I got to update.

Ugh, mosquito bites woke me up. Really sore, itchy bite on the sole of my foot made it impossible to sleep again :(.

Detox day 2 was okay, slightly harder than the first mostly because of cravings. I spent a lot on fruit and vegetables yesterday. My mum made cheese on toast and offered me some (BUT I DECLINED, YAY ME), and it looked so good :(. I ate mango, grapes, Quaker Oats made with water and sweetened with honey, and haricot beans (yum).

I had another nightmare yesterday.. I don't really remember it but I know, like all my dreams, it was like a movie with awesome cinematography. A scary one. It involved death and rape... I had an evil friend who was actually dead and led me into dangerous things so that I would die. Then I was a guy and being chased by a group of guys from school, they wanted to rape me and kill me for some reason, but I hid out in an old ladies house. O_o

I don't have nightmares often, I think it's because I'm stressed. Lord knows why, I just am.
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Detox - Day One [Jul. 3rd, 2009|12:03 am]
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"Detox" day 1 is over :). It went okay, already felt a decline in energy but I expected that. I ate 2 slices of pineapple, 1 slice of melon, 1 slice of watermelon, lots of water, pear juice and a soup that I made throughout the day - without being hungry. I just did 45 minutes of an aerobic workout and 15 minutes weight training. Tomorrow I'm going to buy fruit, vegetables and other things I want for this week.

I'm avoiding meat, milk, cheese, sugar and bread big time. We don't buy chips, chocolate or drink fizzies so I'm all good there, there's no temptation. I think also I'm going to exercise for atleast 30 minutes every day this week, while sticking to the 1 hour 3 times a week as normal.

Soo sticking to this. I love having a plan because I actually stick to it. I've never considered a detox before but I watched a show the other night and the idea appealled to me then. This should be interesting.
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Dean. [Jun. 28th, 2009|02:19 pm]
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I'm an auntie for the fourth time, yay. He was born a month early at 2:55am, weighs 5 pounds something and his name is Dean! :]

He looks just like Ry did when he was born )
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Travelling [Jun. 23rd, 2009|07:31 am]
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I'm going to Bournemouth with a couple of friends, yay. Annnd I've been invited to Paris and Provence, but I'm not yet sure if that one's going to materialise. I hope J and I get to travel to Glastonbury too, and I want to take him to some places in Sussex. I think I'll plan something for the 19th, since that's the day that separates our birthdays. I love travelling ^.^
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College is over! [Jun. 22nd, 2009|01:23 pm]
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Final exam is over. It went really went. I'm expecting an A. Aah, rest.
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Writer's Block: Week in Review [Jun. 21st, 2009|07:44 pm]
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What's the best thing that happened to you this past week?


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I made a really great new friend, one who I know will be in my life for a long while. :)
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Meme [Jun. 21st, 2009|06:27 am]
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Meme )
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06:00 [Jun. 21st, 2009|06:01 am]
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I love waking naturally at this time.
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Is procrastination healthy? [Jun. 19th, 2009|03:33 am]
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I just got reading an interesting article on procrastination since I was just thinking that for me, procrastination is healthy. I work amazingly well under pressure and I find that I am more creative then. I also think that I am good enough to leave all my work until the last minute because experience has told me that I don't need to put a lot of time and effort into my work. I think of these, I'm probably a crisis maker but quite often I've felt like the perfectionist.

Classifying procrastinators
It turns out not all procrastinators are alike. Dr. Sapadin's taxonomy identifies six different types. You may recognize yourself in one or more of these:

Perfectionists -- They want every project to be perfect, and this often causes them to be frozen in fear that they cannot meet such an unrealistic goal, even though they set the goal themselves.

Dreamers -- These people suffer from magical thinking. "It'll all work out," they say, while they do nothing to advance their goals.

Crisis Makers -- They often say they do their best work under pressure, but more accurately, they prefer uproar and crisis to do any work at all. 
 
Worriers -- Their fears consume their thought processes and prevent any real work being done, as they imagine and dwell upon every possible scenario for disaster and failure.

Defiers -- These people may resent the assignments in the first place, and retake control over their lives by refusing to do the work in a timely and cooperative manner, or at all.

Overdoers -- Also known as "the pleasers," these people can't say no, and so take on more and more responsibility without any reasonable expectation of being able to deliver on their obligations.

One of the more fascinating findings in the research literature about procrastinators is that time-management training doesn't really help. Procrastinators know perfectly well how to manage time; they just don't want to do their work that way! -- that's so true.
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'i...' meme. [Jun. 11th, 2009|02:26 pm]
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I am: a good conversationalist.
I am not: shy.
I love: open, fun, dynamic friendships.
I hate: people who don't know what they want and who don't know themselves.
I value: good conversation, memories, life.
I fear: failing at parenting, failing to nurture my children's creativity. biggest fear right thurr. it won't happen though.
I hope: I get two A's on my exams this month.
I hear: that it's pretty nice in Norway~!
I crave: deep, stimulating conversations.
I regret: being insensitive and rude to people.
I cry: usually because I'm happy.
I care: less than I like to think I do.
I don't: like appearing ditzy.
I always: move on too fast.
I believe: in a thing called love, just listen to the rhythm of my heart!! (couldn't help it). I believe in FREE LOVE, YEAH! Nah, I believe in Satan. No seriously, I can't think. NEXT.
I feel alone: quite a bit, and I like it that way. More time to relax and know myself.
I listen: attentively to what everyone has to say.
I hide: my deeper problems with most people. Wouldja believe thaaat?
I drive: my mother to despair, no doubt. Or is that the other way around?
I sing: to anyone! Random people I don't even know if I like, ha.
I dance: crazy around my room to 'Mmmbop' to cheer myself up.
I write: of late more about things that are unimportant to me.
I play: with myself. Hahahaha. Not even gonna add a serious answer there.
I miss: *thinks for a while* I miss the old days where my dad and I would play every day and easily say that we loved each other :(.
I search: for people who inspire me, deep conversation, knowledge, people worth caring about.
I learn: far less than I want to, and bothers me more than most things.
I feel: like chicken tonight, like chicken tonight! I feel like getting on a plane and travelling alone to a country I randomly picked out on a map without planning anything. Walking for hours and exploring the unknown in that country. Wander the beautiful landscapes and find myself. Find peace. Camp out, watch the stars, meet some amazing people.
I know: my two times tables, yaaay!
I wish: I could hold on more tightly to the people in my life.
I say: exaaactly what I'm feeling without any reservations and usually without any tact. Boo me.
I succeed: at making people open up and feel comfortable around me ^.^
I dream: of living in California and have done since I was 12.
I wonder: how more advanced technology will be in 50 years.
I want: to be more knowledgeable.
I will: continue to workout and will lose no more than 12 pounds.
I have: a very friendly, sociable, bubbly nature but quite often that's suppressed by the very moronic, insipid personalities that surround me.
I give: no more than 30% to people I don't give care for and who I know won't get me.
I fell: on top of a penis and THAT'S how I lost my virginity, dad, don't you believe me?! :(
I fight: for my right to PARTAAAAAAAAAY! I fight for my weak friends who can't defend themselves.
I need: to actually study for my exam tomorrow and stop putting it off to do stupid shit like this.

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Boobies! [Jun. 3rd, 2009|01:39 am]
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Hahaha, I so have to answer these questions. I don't know why I find them so amusing.

oo1- So, what size are they? 36DD according to the lady who fitted me in BHS =D
oo2- Did you find it awkward answering the above question? Why would I? I'm not an "awkward" type of person.
oo3- Has a boy ever tried to touch your assets? Way too many. Including heaps of pervy friends from school and random freaks I don't know (the people in my town are fucking nuts, but then again it happened in Egypt too).
oo4- Don't you hate it when your boobs are itchy, and you're in public so you can't scratch them? I'd scratch them anyway, LOL. Not that I ever have O_o. Quite often though I move my boobs or bra around to feel more "comfortable". I can do that in front of anyone and not notice/care.
oo5- Do you own a pushup bra? Yeah.
oo6- What about your nipples? Do you get disgusted when they get hard? HAHAHAHAHA. No, I can't say I do.
oo7- Are you bigger or smaller in the bust area than most of your other friends? Bigger
oo8- Would you ever get breast implants if they were 100% safe and 100% guaranteed to work? No, my boobs are perfect as they are hahaha. Now if you ask me would I get implants if they were FREE, then I probably would go a size bigger just for the fun of it :D. hahaha.
oo9- Do you ever get jealous of other girl's breasts? No way. But I really love boobs that can hang amazingly without a bra, usually is the case after chicks get a breast lift.
o1o- Would you ever show your bare breasts in a magazine for a million dollars? Haha, but of course!
o11- I know you're loving these! So let's try a few more, just for old time's sake! Do you like to show cleavage? That depends. Are there hot guys around? Lol. Nah, I actually don't think I do. I can't stand women who have a lot of cleavage, it's fucking disgusting.
o12- Has anyone ever stereotyped you by the size of your boobs? Nope
o13- Have you ever been made fun of because of the size of them? Nope
o14- Would you like to have breasts like Pamela Anderson's? Hahahah!! Noooo. But can I say, they sure look beautiful: http://images.indiainfo.com/web2images/movies.indiainfo.com/2009/05/14/images/pamela_anderson_400_01.jpg Can't say the same for her face though.
o15- The bigger the better, right? Fuck no. Who likes really huge tits? Is this better to you http://www.thesun.co.uk/sol/homepage/news/article1245660.ece??
o16- Do you like to wear a string bikini just to show off what you got on top? HAHAHA, wtf? no.
o18- Do you need a bra from victoria's secret to be sexy? Don't be silly.
o19- Almost done! Have you ever heard that carrots or corn make your boobs magically grow? Haha, no. If that were true I'd gift them to some depressed friends...
o2o- Haha, last one! Do you prefer to call them boobs, breasts, or tits? I say "tits" a lot. Hate saying "breasts" and "boobs" is funny to me. 

kitten on boobs Pictures, Images and Photos

btw, best boob pic evar.

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